Morning 3

last night was the third night without taking my Seroquel XR.  It took a while to fall asleep.  A long while.  And then I was up on and off all night.  It started at 430am and then about every half hour I would wake up again.  I would up at about 650am and just decided to get up.  I feel like I slept okay though.  Not groggy or anything.  So far.

On Saturday I went to my friend Debbie's house to scrapbook and I ended up staying over.  I didn't have my Seroquel XR with me so I didn't take it that night.  I went to bed at 4am - I didn't get as much scrapbooking done as you may think lol.  I woke up at about 6am, went right back to sleep and then woke up again around 8am.  I felt great - better than I have in the morning for a long time.  I actually felt really well rested.  I have been having a real hard time starting up in the morning since I started taking my Seroquel XR. I have been wanting to stop taking it and try something else for my bi-polar because of all the weight that I have put on as well as not having any energy ever.  So last night, I didn't take it again.  

I was up for about 2 hours after I turned of the TV and the light.  It sucked.  I was so cold.  I finally fell asleep and woke up a few times and was able to get back to sleep rather quickly.  At 705am when I woke up, I was wide awake and felt like I had slept a lot more than I did.  I had a cup of coffee and then got the kids off to school.  I had some good energy.  I got things ready to go to my aunts to work on family history and do some more scrapbooking.  I was busy cleaning up until Jen came to pick me up.  I stayed busy at my aunts most of the time that I was there, then I got an incredible urge to cry.  It was so intense and so hard to get past - I didn't want to break down at her house.  I let Chris know that I was ready to come home, and he came and got me.  While I was there, I was having some crazy cold flashes and was getting jittery.  I just kept trying to stay busy.  After I got home,  I ran to the grocery store to get some things that I needed for dinner, came home and made dinner, got the girls in the tub and to bed, got the kitchen clean and here I sit.  I think I am going to skip tonight's pill.  I am still cold - I reminds me of fever chills, just not quite as intense.  
I have read that days 1-3 aren't too bad when coming off Seroquel XR but the days that follow are horrid.  I have heard that it can be similar to Heroin withdrawls.  That's a little scary.  If it gets bad, I will talk to my Dr.  
I am mostly keeping this 'journal' for my own record.