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I can totally see my life doing a major 180...
I hate how things are right now.
I need to fix things and make them better.
I am scared to be alone though.
I don't know if I can handle it....
Too many emotions over too many things I suppose.
And over too many people...
Why do I fall so easily?
I wish I could be more cold hearted than I am.
I need to be able to stand up for myself...
And find other ways to deal with being hurt.
Maybe one day.....
maybe.

I'm Tech Support (well, almost)

I got a job. I started on the 24th of November. I work at a call center that takes calls for Dell tech support. Crazy! lol I will be in training until the middle of January and then on the floor taking calls.
There is this guy there... he is nice and really cute. I really really like him. He has the cutest smile and the most beautiful eyes.... I don't have the nerve to tell him that I like him yet. I feel like it did back in jr high when I liked someone - lol I did give him my e-mail address today, I wanted to ask him for his, but I didn't know how that would go. So I wrote him a note and gave it to him after work and it just said 'email me' and had my email address. I hope that I hear from him soon. I look forward to work everyday just because I get to see him. I am pretty sure that nothing will come of it because that is usually how it goes, but oh well.
Well, I got a cold last night while I was waiting to be picked up when the car broke down and I feel like shit, so I am going to go to bed as soon as I get my jeans in the dryer....
I can't wait to see him tomorrow......